Tuesday, September 19, 2006
i am not angry or sad at u (how can i bear to be?)
i was just depressed that i lost wat i hang on for so long
and that was hope
wishing that i might haf a chance in a long runhope is my greatest strength yet also my greatest weaknessi haf only myself to blame
if u think u are not worth it
i do not know who else can be...i realised an apology was not needed from uwhy apologiseit was all part of my wishful thinkingi knew that it would end this way (did it even begin?)ur words blocked the ray of light that was shining in my darkest momentsanother mistake would be my instincti took it for granted that my instinct was always rightbut this 100% record has just been lost tosomeone i love so much...even he was forgotteneven if u could climb out of ur prisoneven if he never exisitedeven if he never was therei know i could nvr haf a place in ur heartprobably thats why the ball hit my head so harduntil i cried, cause i realised i wasnt good enough...
picard was here @ 9:39 PM
