battle between the geniuses

Sunday, December 24, 2006

lol hello everybody!!! just came back from thailand...dunno why i so excited also...maybe because had nth to do there i guess...go there dunno how many times le...this time kinda wasted trip la...wanna buy cheap clothes and stuff but dun haf.... zzz summore nvr play any aracde or anything sia.... kinda regretted going...but nvm la since did alot of praying and know abit more abt thailand =) anyway nth much happen la i guess... thailand stuff becoming more and more ex since they are now undergoing some "rapid development"... anyway just like to wish every1 MERRY X'MAS and have fun recieving presents =P

the following part of the post is entirely up to u to read, its just my life story which may be real real real boring and long cause i just wanna type it of myself in case i forget... for those who have absolutely nth to do, enjoy =D

as i was taking my uncle's car ride back, i sorta remincise abt the past... weird la since it has been alrdy 17 years.... looking back at wat has happen, how and probably why, i guess i understand much more abt this world and myself... and also find i haf change real lot, well isnt every1 else the same?

i cant rmb much when i was really young. i rmb i was taken care under a nanny who is neighbour to my grandparents... so i din really noe who my family were until abt kindergarden (pathetic isnt it?) i rmb my nanny use to "train" me real bad man... she wld use needles to poke my mouth if i ever lied or cried for too long (of course that nvr happened la since it was just a threat, but of course i so obedient =X) she wld also ask me to do simple chores like rearranging stuff that is on the table if its too messy... carry some clothes and stuff... haha cant rmb much la...until it became a habit to make everything in order if it looked too messy (until later i realise it was my mum's traits)... well i also stayed under the same roof as my so called "brother" at that pt of time... if i rmb correct he is like at least 4 yrs older than me? cant rmb much la...he was the first person to introduce to me science =D so thats when i started to dream abt being a scientist and also wan to learn more... quite funny come to think of it... so young alrdy so naive and fantasize to much... haha... anw then i learn to know of my grandparents first... so i use to go to their hse occasionally... but both of the flats are quite old... so i kinda grew up wif a so called "poor" family background... but i didnt mind i guess... but i still rmb sumtimes when i cant slp at my nanny's hse, i will sneak to my grandparents hse to slp....but most of the time i got caught la... lol but got succeed b4 hor! went to kindergarden... cant rmb much la... just know that i am a damn naive child, dunno abt ALOT of things and dun socialize alot...really...

primary sch started...finally met my folks during chinese new yr or christmas i forgot... haha just noe that my father is freaking strict and my mother is damn nice to me.... i use to go back to my "real" home on wkends which can be really "strangerous" cause damn quiet and a totally new environment... got used to it quite fast tho... pri sch that time i was REALLY childish and stupid... i still rmb during pri 1... cause my form teacher set this so called rule that cannot speak words like "stupid" and "idiot" or else ur name will be written on the board for 2 wks and no 1 is allowed to speak to u.... haha damn funny la come to think of it... so once i accidentally called some1 stupid and then the whole class didnt wan to "fren" me and i almost cried can... LOL cant imagine how dumb was i last time... then pri 3 i joined scouts... cause last time i underweight (i noe its unbelievable) and damn small size so always kana bullied...must wash and carry everything sia... so i decided to quit (last time i damn weak la i noe) even tho the teacher ask me to stay...so i join librarian...and last time i always nvr exercise one...dun play games...always stay in the library and do my part in becoming a good librarian! =D since i was underweight, my mother keep feeding me until i was ovrweight... then still nvr exercise so kinda bad la... but i was a damn good librarian k... always get awards and stuff... librarians also get to play com games sia... damn cool incentives la =P oh another dumb thing was during pri 4 after exams... the papers were left in the cupboard so can kinda noe ur scores b4hand... then got this classmate of mine threaten to kill my parents if i dun help them check... so i damn coward and stupid one la last time and i go check lor... in the end suay suay kana caught...kns stand in front of class for 2 hrs leh! wah lao legs jelly sia... oh then pri 5 and 6 i got this DAMN GOOD chinese teacher... he also always like to give us small quizes and prizes to make us rmb poems and idioms... damn useful la... but my class last time damn pro one la so no pt trying to compete... pro as in most of them are in hci, rj and vj now i think... and this teacher also like to call me "bing shen" cause he lazy to call me buy my chinese name... haha so everybody started calling me "ice" as if i am some drug liddat... then the cigarrette brand "benson & hedges" also... i damn related to demerit goods one leh =/ then pri 6 i still damn stupid and naive la... so like take everything as it is lor...i also like to cry... like my psle results i also cry... lol... but who cares la

so secondary sch came quickly... i tot i wld like rot in maris stella cause my academic potential sucked as seen from psle results... but in the end not bad sia... my brain like power generated then my science results (which is my weakest yet my most interested) shot up like mad la... haha quite cool la... so happily continue my so called form and then joined npcc... didnt noe alot of ppl la since i still didnt socialize alot at that pt of time... just join that cca because of the cool looking guns and stuff (and fate so as it seems, i became a armourer)... sec 2 had this area camp wif the other schs...sort of first time interact wif girls... lol sound damn deprived.... but really dumb la.. just kept quiet thruout the whole camp... then kana saboed like mad for cheers and stuff... but i am not the worst =D then sec 3 and sec 4 went by quickly wif loads of fun memories (and also a few sad ones) both wif my squadmates and classmates... by then i started socializing more cause i realised the importance of making more frens... rather than having none to turn to... became abit more outgoing altho i still abit naive... but more open to the world wif my socializing =D also had this like mini badminton games everywk... used to play wif this gang... will play and play and play until blisters all ovr the foot (cause i barefoot =X) and sec 2 also started this winning 11 craze... then the whole np gang will chiong ovr to my hse to play and play... then will stayovr and stuff... haha then wat free food shit... aiya alot of things la... so thats how my sec sch days flew by... but i still fantasize alot during sec sch periods... will normally fantasize abt fancy drills, gaming, loads la... still had that child like spirit in me i guess back then.

so this yr jc... haha really first time interact wif so many girls =X cant blame me la...10 yrs boy sch... met loads of nice frens... socialized alot here... cause i tot that it was good la to try to me much more open for once since i haf only a few sec sch frens in the same jc... met a very special girl at the start of the yr... met loads of good female frens too along the way... haha i guess thats how life goes when u socialize alot...joined hockey... made more cool and funny frens...

well i cant rmb much la...since i type alot alrdy...maybe i edit when i haf time? but more imptly was i noe one thing i haven changed all this yrs:

i nvr stopped dreaming
it doesnt matter if its fantasy
unreal, or impossible
cause dreams are wat make the world go round
dreams are wat keeps us motivated
each individual dreams are wat creates the uniqueness in us

so guess wat was i listening too when i rmbed all this?

In my mind
I can climb
All the mountains that surround me
My spirit’s there, where eagles dare to fly

In my heart
There’s a spark
That can light the world around me
An open door, where I am sure dreams are

It doesn’t matter if I win
Or the colour of my skin
Cause the race is all about
Believing in yourself

And I dream
I can run
Like the wind
And be strong
When my heart just wants to give in
I dreamI can be
The hero that’s in me
When I dream, I dream

If there’s a timeIn your life
When the odds are so against you
There’s no defeat, if all you keep is pride
First or last
Slow or fast
There’s a dignity that makes you
Keep driving on, when world’s have come apart

It doesn’t matter rich or poor
Or the things you’ve done before
Cause the race is all about
Believing in yourself

I dream
Of a moment
That forever will be golden
When the torch is passed
Only dreams will last
That are shared by everyone
idreamofu

picard was here @ 11:40 PM