Sunday, August 12, 2007

haha let me see... i am blogging at this unearthly hour because i suddenly feel like it...and some people like yinqi keep complaining i nvr update and their blogs are v alive and kicking! ok so here i am to update abt my boring and muggerish life and i put a larger font for easier reading, i just realised its really damn hard to read or else its just my eyesight getting worse...basically i haf been staying back to mug in the library wif the hockey muggers like daniel and charles for the past few weeks, and its truly amazing (even to me) that i can actually bother to stay back lol. i guess its just that i have nothing else to do except for mug...and i really haf to catch up wif work and stuff so ya hopefully everything is prepared before prelims cause i still got hell alot to do zz. and i am still abit in touch wif hockey! that day help out at some nyp tournament event wif tiru and i had to umpire, really really really tough job man especially when u umpire those "derby" matches. its really terrible when u have to make a controversial call and stuff, summore i so short then like damn good to bully liddat zz... ytd also went down to nyp to play awhile wif charles and a few other nyp frens... haha its was good except very out of shape but had a good feel wif my new stick! haha now charles is also tempted to get one before testimonial match and next year's tournament, considering that we might actually be promoted to division 2, cool man. next yr nyp also "importing" loads of new players, will really be competitive for first 11 places but the good thing is most of the players imported are all midfielders and strikers and still got space for me as a defender! but still have to perform no matter wat, i feel like inside the premiership where clubs try to buy the best players and stuff. we try to "buy" players from more influential clubs in div 3 and if possible from premier league. haha it will be cool if one day i ever get to touch the premier league or even div 1, but really its all about drive and passion to play hockey i guess or any sport. it was said on the start of the premiership just now that youth players bring in creativity and pace to the game because of no fear and passion for it, or else it will be boring and just long crosses from one end of the field to the other (like liverpool just now, boring game actually, sorry to all liverpool fans but its a fact). talking abt ultimate sianness, school is still in fact boring wif all the revision lectures and stuff, i really not learning anything except probably bio and abit of math, or else i think chem and econs is just bullshit revision lectures and no point seriously.

i had this random thought that day tho: in the course of our whole life, we always lead life by ourselves, not wif frens or family. even though it may seem that we share weal and woe wif our frens now and sometimes joy wif our families, but deep down in fact we are just living life alone. in a few yrs from where we are now, we are just gonna have a complete different circle of friends. guys are going ns and mix wif other guys, girls will break off contact wif ns guys and socialise wif university people... even tho we might say we can still keep in contact, things are nvr gonna be the same again i think. are u still gonna spend ur time wif that fren the same way u spend it wif him or her a few years ago? then another 10 yrs from then, we are just gonna be in the working world, working wif our fellow colleagues and bosses, every year employees and employeers change, so actually ur social circle also gradually changes unconciously... quite scary when u actually think abt it. in life maybe we just will only have like less than 5 frens we will noe thruout our whole course of life and that is if we are lucky and actually haf one. or else in my opinion we are just living life alone (excluding marriage and stuff). as for ur family, we grow up and begin to trust them lesser and lesser. increasing quarrels between kids and parents are just a way of life... there is no way we can ever go back to being the same kid we are. haha all these is just random thoughts, believe all u wan.

was watching potc these few days too late in the night and famous captain jack sparrow saying - what is it u wan most? how often do we ask ourselves this question? if we ever do haf that special compass that captain jack owns, will the compass point only in one direction, in a few different directions or just keep spinning? well i noe that what we wan most always change as life goes by, but without an aim or desire can we really live life to the fullest? it is alright to change ur utmost desires and wants, there is no right or wrong...but will we end up as confused individuals seeking nothing but assume we know wat we want like a spinning compass? life is short and fast as wat charles told me ytd, it is not easy to say that we dun regret this or that. well for me, i only want 3 things so far. the obvious is of course good A level results (haha who doesnt), next i want to be an outstanding hockey player (haha that will have to wait quite long considering my size!), lastly... haha maybe that is wat i will want most in a long run? who knows...

school is going to be more and more strainous i suppose so we all have to take a break once in awhile and relax, sit and fantasize abit its okay. it helps to relax for me and puts a smile on my face once in awhile, recollecting all my amibitons and lessons in life. but i guess the most important question we must always ask ourselves to bring us forward in life, to give us more hope, to drive us and motivate in whatever we do, to set us thinking in a proper mindset is - what is it we want most?

the genius

* bensonsiow/iceboy
* 18 soon
* NPCC; Hockey
* Maris Stella (10 yrs); Anderson JC

the rules

*******
success only belong
to those who
choose to believe
they will not fail

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it is amazing how
2 contrasting figures
can haf so much similarities
just like Kira and L
goes to show how ironic and confusing life can be

*******
success may grant u joy
but leaves no lessons behind to be taught
failures can be depressing
but expresses a thousand words
no matter how hard it may seem to look...
just keep moving forward

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the death note

the victims

* Agnes
* Allena
* Andrew
* Arlana
* Dania
* Elson
* Jaclyn
* Jianhui
* Jolene
* Joycelyn
* Katrina
* Liangpei
* Lye Heng
* Martin
* Madeira
* Rimmel
* See Wai
* Shih Han
* Shui Yong
* Samantha
* Tian Xiang
* Tiffany
* Vivian
* Wanting
* Wei En
* Wei Lie
* Xiang Sheng
* Xiaoting
* Yee Keong
* YiHan
* Yu Chuan
* Zheng Kai
* Ziming
* Zoe

the past

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January 2007
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September 2008

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