Sunday, September 28, 2008
haha omg i cant believe that i am blogging at this time now, afterall i haf been leaving this thing to rot for abt a yr i think... but after reading some people's blog i decided to just post for fun, cause i am abit lazy to write in my ocs journal (and yes ocs does make u write in ur journals to keep ur brain alive). haha if u are really reading this post whether u accidentally came across it or been visting my blog for updates for some weird reason please DO TAG!
anw life in army has been really repetitive and for once i really feel sick and tired of going thru my life, its quite a weird mix of feelings really cause even how repetitive school is u dun get sick of it somehow. going on to professional term soon as an INFANTRY officer, dammit man tot i wld be an arti officer lol but well like wat my mother says, its all fated so ya just haf to accept it.
in a very random note, i haf been staying at my childhood fren's hse for the past 2 wks (as in during my leave, not awol), and i haf to say i really forgotten wat it is like to be a civilian. sounds extreme but its really true. i forgotten how it feels like to take ur time in everything we do, do what we like and take time in admiring everything and anything that is beautiful in the surroundings. even a simple cycle along ecp when we decided to go carl's jnrs to eat is much more enjoyable than anything i haf tried to do in the past book outs (with probable exception of playin hockey and hanging out wif the np gang). ya i noe it sounds super sad and retarded but i guess i adapt too well at times, my whole system now is locked on to the army life so i really forgotten how it feels to be a civilian and mixing wif guys 24/7 doesnt turn u gay but makes u feel lost around females, stupid rite?
last time only hrs and days were counted and precious to me, now every single minute and second seems to be more important to me than anything else in the world. time, as every army guy will say, is the upmost treasure we can ever haf in these 2 yrs whether u are a men or an officer. it also came across to me that i haven keep in contact wif some of my classmates for xtremely long time alrdy, feels weird to even wantig to start a convo or talk anything to them, i feel very guilty on my part too zz. well i guess this is part and parcel of the whole sianz of army and stress of uni cycle. last time we used to be able to talk relatively well and abt anything, now its even hard to maintain 3 msgs to each other lol...not to mention even chatting on msn no longer than 10 mins.
well too many thoughts alrdy, cant pen it down really... dunno how to say also... maybe i shall post another random post nxt time when i haf time... oh rmb if u are reading this, PLEASE TAG, haha thnx
picard was here @ 3:07 PM
